Overanalytical

Probably my biggest flaw.

Not that I know how anyone else's mind works, but I think mine is just peculiar. I think WAY too much. It's even getting on my own nerves. Every little detail plays over and over in my head. My brain never takes a rest. When something I don't like is said, it stays with me for longer than it needs to be. I want to just shut my brain off sometimes, I just want to be happy without all the complications of my overworking brain. One little detail, just one. I can take it in and twist it and analyze it until it's so far from the meaning that it's not even plausible. Not only that but then that sort of stuff prevents me from enjoying myself.

It's starting to ruin my life now. The sleeping problems and attempts at medication, I'm used to it. I can make it with several hours of sleep, I can handle laying in bed for 5+ hours doing nothing but thinking. That kind of stuff I'm no longer affected by. But now... I can't even think of a moment when I've been truly happy today. And why the hell not? I had fun talking to all my friends today and JL was by my side trying to make me snap out of whatever I'm in. I don't know what to do... I've tried to just let things go but I can't shake anything away from me. JL though, he does help in a way. Sometimes he's the root of my worries, but then again so is everything. It's like, when I'm around him, my stupid worries don't always matter. My brain doesn't seem to aknowledge what's even going on around me. At school though it's harder to be that way.

I don't want to be complicated and hard to understand. I don't want to be in bed for hours thinking about things that hurt me. I don't want to try to figure out the most simplest interactions with people. I don't want to worry about absolutely nothing. I just want my simplicity back.