Not enough memories in this void world

Not enough memories in this void world, originally uploaded by ohhh catherine.

I thought of a new series today.

I guess sometimes my brain likes to cooperate. Moody biootchhh.

& my blog hurts my eyes. will fix tomorrow cause I like to procrastinate and such.

the photog part of my brain

It's so up and down and up and downdowndown with my photography. Somedays I can produce something good and other days it's like I'm too scared to even pick up the camera. Sometimes I think about how nice it'd be to just put away the camera for a little bit and not even think about it. That's what 365 does to you, it forces you to think creatively every day and somedays it's just not possible. But I'm not going to quit because then I'd be like half the young female photographers whose streams inspired me to no end, but then suddenly stopped. I don't know, I just feel like a failure sometimes. Life I've failed my camera who has yet to fail me.

But I got a job. I've got a writing position on the media production team w/ KSD. Tomorrow I go in to discuss the details and stuff. With a job I'll have even less time for 365. I'll probably end up driving to school to save time. =/

It's been an up/down day.

tumblr annoys me now

I finished my rough draft, sent in my article, but four cops were killed today, I haven't been keeping up with 365 and I only finished 21.3/30 problems of math homework. Things can't just ever be good.

When's the last time I actually had a good day?

past bloggings

lmfao.

reading through my old blog posts from last year. holy crap, i was so weird. i can't believe it's been a year...

black friday

i did good this year, didn't go overboard on anything. walmart had the best deals, hahahhah. and kmart.

my life is quite hectic lately, as my dad is home now. we have a hospital bed here for him and everything. i've been so busy. every other minute i'm interrupted by my parents to do something. i'm not trying to whine, but i'm not used to be so busy and unenergized. it's: dishes, changing clothes, feeding, giving meds, sweeping/mopping, buying food, picking up meds, laundry, cleaning throw up, cooking, cleaning, all in a day's time.

asd;lkasl;dal;s. my head feels so heavy.

fantastic

New Moon was amazing. Genuinely good. Though I am biased, I would totally say it sucked if it did. 120938x better than Twilight and it followed the book almost exactly. I will totally buy the DVD. A couple scenes were cheesy but this director did a lot better than Catherine Hardwick did. Just sayinggg.

School play was good too. It didn't really have a plot, which was different. Easier to watch I think.

And now I am home and about to fall asleep.

There's something mysterious hanging out of the underside of my car. It looks like an extension cord but is not. I don't know. It's scary.

Got a job interview on Monday and babysitting tomorrow. $$$$$.
Goodnight! =]

365 lately.

I'm procrastinating on my english outline.

Today's looking better

minus math homework and my lack of creativity/enthusiasm for 365. It shows.

scarred

that was the single worst experience of my entire existence.

they transferred my dad to a rehab/healthcare center yesterday. today I went to visit and they had all the older people just lined up in wheelchairs outside of their rooms, waiting for a nurse to come get them. half were drooling/nodding off and the others were just sitting there, all somber and placid even as people talked to them. it's like they were all invalids. dad was happy to see my mom and I though and I don't blame him, that place was fucking depressing and scary. I felt like walking through a horror movie. He seemed a little better I guess... but he still can't walk/stand by himself and that stuff. And adult diapers. After seeing those I couldn't even pretend I was okay anymore.

I don't think I can be in denial any longer.

two new loves

free MOO business cards & 120 eye color palette (late birthday present).

the weekend has arrived

@ SCCC

Broadway

6th & Pike

Only one class yesterday/today since my other two were cancelled. Very nice!
Bought stuff at Nordstrom's yesterday then shopped on Broadway today. And that's it! No more money spent until my car is in better-than-decent shape. Lately I've been driving all over the place while fearing that my engine may explode. =/

Dad's still in the hospital and it's still hectic as hell. Soooo glad for the weekend.

Yawn

Still at the hospital and trying to complete math homework. I need to sleep early tonight.

Oh, and renewing the tabs on my car comes out to be $62.67. I'm so going broke.

Panoramic View of the Day

My first one, taken out the window of St. Francis hospital. I didn't know my cell phone could take these. I will be taking them more often now. =]

I don't think I can sleep tonight

Doctors might have to amputate some of my dad's toes. They've turned black. He has pussy eyes and his body is still swollen. They still don't know what's wrong with him.

Then he hit the "lock" switch in the car on accident and the car was still running while locked with the keys inside while the car was parked in the emergency loading area where abulances were trying to get in and out. I had to drive there w/ the spare car keys. I pulled up there and saw some police officers waiting with my mom. They all ran towards me to get the key, hahah. It was sort of funny. I guess they were afraid the engine would explode or something. =/

Now I'm trying to keep my household decent and do my homework. I can't wait until this week is fucking over.

novemeber, I'm not gonna like you

Mom just took dad to the hospital. Second time in a couple weeks. This time it's a little worse. So I'm going to pack my stuff and head over to my mom's friend's house because being home alone sucks sometimes. My aunt's not even in town.

I hate uncertainty. I think I've said that a lot before about smaller things, but I really mean it now.