I thought of a series I could do for my 365 project [once I start it]. Hahahh. It'll be so awesome. I don't want to jinx it though, so we'll just have to see about it later. I need a clever title too.
I'm having a rare moment of peace right now. I just want to smile. Life is good, I think. Besides the possibility of failure on finals. EHK, math sucks.
It's like, I've learned to get past myself and the past. Only several months ago I was beating myself up over things that affected my life so long ago. It seems like that with many people, the bad sticks with them, not the good. I just feel so content right now. I was reading my entries from my journal from early 2007 and in 2008, it was insanity. I documented the times of volleyball, Mark, friends, Emily, and the start of JL and I. It was cute to remember how our relationship began. It was so... unexpected I think. Mostly since we had been friends for years before that day. We had our share of growing up to do though. Many entries showed how we'd fight over stupid things and even break up because of them. I was mostly just an angry person during that time who didn't have a clue about love. The long break up was good. I grew up. Something did come from it. During those two months we grew up so much... and ever since then we've changed. There aren't any stupid fights anymore, random hangups, or pointless breakups. Now it seems like we've always been this way, just two kids in love. I love him and I'm not afraid to fall anymore. I can accept the past.
Okay, so that was my lovey dovey epiphany for the night. I'm tired and rambling, what do you expect.
I think I'm going to go write in Emily's journal now.
P.S -
Meet my 2001 VW Golf. It was my uncle's. It only has two doors [but 5 seats], it runs in diesel, and is a manual. I have never driven it in my life. That'll change once I watch enough youtube videos on how to drive a freaking stick. I'm more attached to my mom's car, but oh well.
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