Unrecent

Is that a word?

JL hassss to come over tomorrow. I have a good idea for an 052 picture. The one of us two that I already had wasn't good at all. I hate it when myspace shrinks pictures down. And PNGs are too large. And also we haven't had a picture together for awhile, unless you count the crappy ones on my cell phone. Can't wait can't wait can't wait. =]

A Shopping Fix

Finally, Southcenter.

I don't even remember the last time I went to the mall. Anyways, I had to carry Emily around since her stroller was home, ehkkkk. My arms are dead. I got some good stuff. Cheapo stuff at Delias! Then I went to the Fed. Way Commons or whatever they're called. Nothing there. Then drove on the freaking freeway. I'm tired. Hopefully JL can come over tomorrow. I miss that poophead.

Nothing deep tonight.

11:16pm Inspiration

I love those times when really good ideas come to you at the randomest times.

I thought of a series I could do for my 365 project [once I start it]. Hahahh. It'll be so awesome. I don't want to jinx it though, so we'll just have to see about it later. I need a clever title too.

I'm having a rare moment of peace right now. I just want to smile. Life is good, I think. Besides the possibility of failure on finals. EHK, math sucks.

It's like, I've learned to get past myself and the past. Only several months ago I was beating myself up over things that affected my life so long ago. It seems like that with many people, the bad sticks with them, not the good. I just feel so content right now. I was reading my entries from my journal from early 2007 and in 2008, it was insanity. I documented the times of volleyball, Mark, friends, Emily, and the start of JL and I. It was cute to remember how our relationship began. It was so... unexpected I think. Mostly since we had been friends for years before that day. We had our share of growing up to do though. Many entries showed how we'd fight over stupid things and even break up because of them. I was mostly just an angry person during that time who didn't have a clue about love. The long break up was good. I grew up. Something did come from it. During those two months we grew up so much... and ever since then we've changed. There aren't any stupid fights anymore, random hangups, or pointless breakups. Now it seems like we've always been this way, just two kids in love. I love him and I'm not afraid to fall anymore. I can accept the past.

Okay, so that was my lovey dovey epiphany for the night. I'm tired and rambling, what do you expect.

I think I'm going to go write in Emily's journal now.

P.S -

Meet my 2001 VW Golf. It was my uncle's. It only has two doors [but 5 seats], it runs in diesel, and is a manual. I have never driven it in my life. That'll change once I watch enough youtube videos on how to drive a freaking stick. I'm more attached to my mom's car, but oh well.

Yawn

You make me mad. Stop being ridiculous. I know how you are, you spread rumors about people and when confronted, you deny it or place the blame elsewhere. This has been proven just recently. Don't talk about my friends. Don't talk about me. Lastly, don't do anything stupid. Next time, you can guarentee me there. Hope that makes your day. =]

I'm freaking tired.

Dear JL,

To: JL, originally uploaded by ohhh catherine.

I love you. You make me happy. You are the only one that can cheer me up on a sucky day like that of finals.

This picture sort of sucks, but it's my first try at multiplicity. I'll do better next time. Right now I just want to nap.

I don't like today that much. Except JL was supercute and gave me a coat he bought in China. Heheheee. And he was all LD, very cute. I have the whole weekend to hang out with him, there's only two weeks until I leave =[.

Gotta pack!

301

301st blog. Crazy! I blog too much. At least I'm journaling too.

Today was sort of weird. Sort of enlightening for some reason, I can't really figure it out.

Today's finals were okay I guess. I'm thinking I did poorly on the math one. Biology perhaps a B max. The rest I didn't do too badly on. I don't really know.

I'm in a good mood. I just want to write and take pictures and clean my room and drink tea and eat chocolate and take the metro around Seattle and sleep in his arms again. You know those days? I just want to do all the simple things again without the chaos of life getting in the way.

I took my tripod out and sort of sat about with it. I was going to take a picture with my car but my aunt's car was in the way, hahahh. Then I just took some normal myspace-y pictures.

I think I've learned to chill.

Lol

Everytime Emily sees my phone or it rings or whatever she says "DAJY" only not. Maybe it's "JAJY". I'm not sure, it's her own language. Now she assumes that whenever I'm on my cell phone that it's JL. So funny. The other day she had my phone and wouldn't give it back. She ran around saying "Awwoh" [Hello] and wouldn't stop. Occasionally she would yell "JAJY" or whatever.

Hahahh, I'm talking to my aunt now. Was reminded of Emily's antics.

Journal Bits - 01/27

Last night I had a slightly uneasy stomach, this morning I was having the worst aches I've ever had. They still haven't gone away yet. I'm not sure what's wrong with me. Oddly-timed cramps? Stomach flu? Something else...? Ugh. And I'm so freaking tired. Just took a one hour nap and missed out on playing with Emily, she just went home. =[

English final was dull. I took awhile on it and at least nobody had to do the essay today.

French final had so many listening questions. I know I missed under 10 problems, which is good.

I feel like crap. All I had for lunch was a couple french fries and yet I still don't have the urge to eat yet.

JL made my day better though. He's the sweetest. Hehehee, less than a week before 3/9 month.

Lengthy

I'm sure you could call this a long blog post.

I haven't vented for awhile. This has been one of the very few times EVER that I've wanted to "confront" somebody. Not so much confront, but just talk to about stuff. Just because you will do... ahem. Stuff. For any guy, it doesn't add up to anything substantial. If you regret it, then why post a MYSPACE bulliten about it?! Do you want a flashing billboard with the words "I'M EASY" on them? Not saying you are, but from what I've heard... Anyways, stop saying you're spreading good wholesome kindness to the world when really... you're trying to do the opposite. Next time, I'm coming along. How would you like that? I bet you wouldn't even go because then you couldn't be as slutty as you please. Don't. I hope you'll notice how he will avoid you now because he doesn't WANT you all over him.


Anyways, this morning my wood gate thing was frozen shut. The latch wouldn't even budge. I had to hop over it. Hahahh. I got my photos developed in time, and now I only have to do a posterboard. I'm freaking pooped out. JL and Leah and I went to McDs after school, even I just ate there earlier today. Took the metro home, a first in awhile. I don't even remember the last time I took the metro. Might go to Emily's later. I miss that poop.

Yesterday night I wrote in my journal. I hadn't written in it since July. Missed lots of stuff. Now I'm starting to write in a journal [that Kerlyn got me for my birthday] for Emily. I think she'll like reading it when she's older. It's important for her to have memories of her dad too... and I have lots.

Blah, lots of stuff to do.

Scrambled Eggs

That's how I feel.

I think I have arthritis in my left hip. When I take a step it's like there's pressure on my bones. So I limp. I feel old.

Finishing my freaking India project now. JL couldn't come over, I was at my aunt's for longer than I expected. Went to Target though, got some good stuff.

Emily has too much energy. Period.

Nothing Much

I just made vegetable chowder. I'm so full.

Watching a rerun of Desperate Housewives, Miss USA or something is on at 9.

Tomorrow: Eat all my leftovers, go home, JL will come over, finish India project, cook, eat dinner for New Year, do homework that I've procrastinated on, Desperate Housewives, more homework, sleep.

Today was a good day.

Productive Day

MY FILM CAME OUT!
Yessss. Can't wait to develop prints now. They're super cute.
=]

Another 052... Lol.

"Winter just wasn't my season.", originally uploaded by ohhh catherine.

[Click the picture to see it in Flickr & others.]

Got to take advantage of the natural lighting, ya know?
Please no snow this weekend. I will be quite furious.

Made dinner again tonight. I'm so freaking full. My parents enjoyed it, and I could tell they weren't lying. Lmao, yeah they've lied before. I'm at a lost of what to cook tomorrow though. I'm going to Emily's house, so maybe my aunt can cook, hahahh.

Emily's such a big part of my life now, she really is like my sister. I miss her. I like taking care of her, she's the most amazingest 18-month old on this planet. :D

You know what I realized today? I don't even remember what JL looks like with black hair. I can only if I think about it hard enough, or just look at pictures. But you know what elseeee? I can't even picture him at all with his old hair. The all-spiked-up gelled hair. Ahahahahh.

Ack!

Too much crap to do. Here was my day:

• JL has a cutie heart.
• Scammer tried to buy my camera, yeah right.
• Found out Brie Cheese is super expensive for a wedge.
• Emily came over and is spending the night.
• Aunt left her purse @ home so I had to drive her there and back.
• Made dinner, Cheddar/Salsa/Corn Potatos & Brie/Apple Chicken. YUM.
• NEW 052 picture. Not the best, but I like the scenery.
• Have lots of homework to do.

Okay, gotta clean up and do homework now.

Semi-Crazy Day

Inauguration: If you support Obama, then please at least know why? Do not respond with JUST the fact that he is black. Do you know where he stands with POLITICS or anything else relevant to the matter? I hope he gets our country out of the toilet. If he can then by all means, I support him.

Weather sucks: What's up with all this fog and cold? JL & I didn't even go off campus today 'cause it was so cold. Hahahh, I'm wimpy. Driving home in the fog at this time of day wasn't so fun either. I had to go like, 20mph so I wouldn't hit something I couldn't see.

Ross: LOL@ROSS. They had all these colored skinny jeans that were super cheapo, so I bought my first colored pair, hahahh. Also bought a cardigan. They had freaking PUNKROSES there. I was like wtfff. I found my size but they were black/green and I figured I'd save my money for some more variety in my shoesies. They were only $19.99, sort of pissed me off. I bought mine for... $42 and the other pair was a gift from JL. They also had these Vans No Skools I wanted a LONG time ago, but they're sort of ugly to me now.

CHICKEN?!: As my mom was leaving to interpret today, she saw a freaking chicken in our driveway. She even took pictures on her cell phone. It was just a reddish chicken... in our driveway. She had to leave so she doesn't know what happened to it. Ahahahhh... why did the chicken cross the road? To get to my driveway of course. :D

Finals: I need to freaking study.

Camera For Sale

If anyone wants a nice digital camera... 5mp & 10x zoom!

I just put it up on Craigslist. Click.
:D

Sick, again

Stupid cold.

If it's going to be blamed on the fact that I am not a fat teenager, then okay. I'll be cooking my own stuff from now on. Isn't that the job of the parents? Aren't they supposed to provide FOOD at the very least? Oh well. Instead of a meal now and then, I will be in charge of every intake of nutrients in my body because I'm tired of hearing how skinny I am. Goddamn, if they keep yelling about it then why don't they do anything? I don't know, I just eat what they make for me. Isn't that what's supposed to happen? Grocery shopping tomorrow. Yeahyeah, "I'm almost an adult, I need to be taking responsibility for everything."

Young and Oblivious

Emily says "Bye Bye!" to her poo before my aunt flushes the toilet. She barks when there's a dog on T.V. She tries to hug all the toddlers her age when they first meet, they usually push her away.

I wish I could be oblivious as well. I don't like how this world works.

New Moon

New Moon, originally uploaded by ohhh catherine.

I forgot I had the option to "blog this" on flickr. So here it is! I think I'll start doing this every week. I'm not even home to take pictures of junk around the house for Craiglist. But once I do, DLSR!

Original Post:

So I watched Emily for a couple hours. Aunt just got home. Emily has a cold or something, I had to wipe her nose every couple minutes. And I changed her diaper. I don't like doing that. Lmao.

On my mental list of "The Cutest Things JL has Ever Said", he topped it last night. I do love him.

I'm Home

It was pretty fun. Vancouver has blue skies. I only see fog now, although the sun is starting to peek out. I took an okay 052. It's not so bad. I want to go take another one right now but I'm watching Emily play with her play-dough. Lots to write about, I'll blog later. I'm tired.

Vancouver

Will be back Monday.

Sigh. Things never go my way. A stay away from here will do me some good. Life is being bipolar on me.

Goal #1 - Entrepreneurship

Not really, but close enough.

I am now going to go on a Craiglist rampage and sell everything with no value to me. I need about $550 before February 10th ish.

Hm, I'm thinking I can do it.

Minor

There was no sun today.

My brain hurts from straining it. Today was okay. I would like to sit down and write about something, but there's nothing inspiring me today. I hate these gray days. After my shower I will sit down with a bowl of white chocolate & raspberry w/ chocolate truffles ice cream. Safeway brand is way better than that expensive crap.

Then I will go to Emily's soon. I feel obligated to visit her often. Her dad's gone. Her mom watches her 24 hours a day with no break. She goes until 2pm without food because she's just too busy. Watching Emily, getting housework down, missing my uncle, stress, dealing with bills and adult junk, etc. And Emily... my goodness. I could blog about her all day but it's hard to describe how she is. I couldn't even eat when I was there. I would play with her for a little then when she wasn't looking, I'd run to my food for a couple bites. She just requires so much attention. Bleeeeeh, babies.

And now, my parents want to move. Not far at all. But still, I don't want to move. I like this house. I grew up here, I know everything about it. My room is me and I don't want to uproot my life here. Even 3 minutes away is too much, I like where I'm at. Sigh. Exasperated is a good word for me now.

No Descriptions

I can't describe today. Was neither good or bad.

• Got to wake up late - Good
• Dentist appt. - BAD
• Missed math/biology - Good
• Short classes - Good
• Got annoyed - Bad
• Leah came over - Good
• Went to Emily's - Good
• 3 nights worth of math homework - Really bad
• Finished ham sandwich story thing - Annoying
• Can't find debit card - Really bad
• Went into major stress mode - Bad
• Tomorrowish will find out about job - Good/Bad?

All Good Things

Today was a good day.

JL is the best. He puts up with my insanity. Today was an LD day. =]

AND, going to Vietnam. It's confusing, but basically I'm going with my aunt and Emily and going home alone. THEN my mom will go for 3 weeks. Holy crap... three weeks. Me and my dad. That will be interesting... I'll have to drive us places and do all the mom-stuff. Also, I won't see Emily for likeeeee, almost a month. So not cool. But it'll be fun. I'm going to pack all my summer clothes now, hahah. Oh, and gotta buy the DSLR. And get my license before mom leaves.

Hmm, it's nice to have a good day now and again.

Nicely Done

Finished my website. Ugh, English projects... they'll be the death of me.

Emily's spending the night here, first time in a seriously long time.
Today was a good day I guess. Nothing eventful obviously because I hardly remember anything about today. JL's sleeping now, won't be able to talk to him for awhile. Probably call me at like, 2am. Lmao. Now I can blow off homework for the whole night, no math tomorrow.

Camera has been decided on. I cannot wait. =]

MY ZUNE TAKEN HOSTAGE

So, my zune has been MIA for 3 days now.

I have reason to believe my mom found it and is holding it hostage even though she says "Pahahahah, no. But I'll find it for you if you do 10 pages of scrapbooking for me."

WTF.
The price I pay for music.

I feel like Loving

So JL came over today, a first in awhile. I love the time we spend not at school. There's no better feeling then laying on his shoulder in contentment.
Took some pictures but the ones on my cell phone came out better. Lmao.

Golden Globes, Desperate Housewives. A nice night of T.V that I'm going to watch soon.

Slightly Frightened

My mom's making me ask my dad if JL can come over tomorrow. EHHHH!
Usually she just says "okay". Gr, parents stink sometimes. Double-teaming me. =[

But if he does come over, we'll go see Emily for a bit then come back here and take some 052s, heheeee. Hm, still scared though.

Lethargic

Hm, one of those days.

JL is playing football with Moose and them. I cleaned my room. I set a record for cleanliness, it hasn't been this clean for like... a year. Cleaned the bathrooms as well. Now I'm replying to my God Mom's email. My mom's said she's feeling to lazy to go anywhere so I can't drive. I can't go to see Emily. I'm bored here. My brain is still on snooze mode, there's just nothing to do or to be done. I want a sunny day so I can go outside and lay in the grass. After taking my allergy meds of course. Stupid allergies. Is there a point to this blog? No, not really. It's mindless ranting about nothing in peticular. I must sound a little insane now, so I'll stop.

Overanalytical

Probably my biggest flaw.

Not that I know how anyone else's mind works, but I think mine is just peculiar. I think WAY too much. It's even getting on my own nerves. Every little detail plays over and over in my head. My brain never takes a rest. When something I don't like is said, it stays with me for longer than it needs to be. I want to just shut my brain off sometimes, I just want to be happy without all the complications of my overworking brain. One little detail, just one. I can take it in and twist it and analyze it until it's so far from the meaning that it's not even plausible. Not only that but then that sort of stuff prevents me from enjoying myself.

It's starting to ruin my life now. The sleeping problems and attempts at medication, I'm used to it. I can make it with several hours of sleep, I can handle laying in bed for 5+ hours doing nothing but thinking. That kind of stuff I'm no longer affected by. But now... I can't even think of a moment when I've been truly happy today. And why the hell not? I had fun talking to all my friends today and JL was by my side trying to make me snap out of whatever I'm in. I don't know what to do... I've tried to just let things go but I can't shake anything away from me. JL though, he does help in a way. Sometimes he's the root of my worries, but then again so is everything. It's like, when I'm around him, my stupid worries don't always matter. My brain doesn't seem to aknowledge what's even going on around me. At school though it's harder to be that way.

I don't want to be complicated and hard to understand. I don't want to be in bed for hours thinking about things that hurt me. I don't want to try to figure out the most simplest interactions with people. I don't want to worry about absolutely nothing. I just want my simplicity back.

Comme-ci, Comme-ca

I don't think I like today that much. The weekend will be good for me. I plan to take a mind-vacation. It's very overdue.

He did write me something cute though. =]

Yearning for Friday

Ran over a curb going home today, and Auburn has those damn "photosafe" things. And I seem to attract police enforcement. There was one in front of me and I drove past 2 of them after that. Lmao. Freaked me out.

Still have lots of homework to do, like always. I'm glad tomorrow's Friday. I desperately need a weekend.

I've settled on D60. I still haven't heard back from the job I applied for. I bet it's bad news. =/

Today wasn't a good day. I think I was born without the ability to relax and let things go. I'm trying though, honest.

The Old Man is Snoring

The rain needs to ease upppp.

I am very determined to get that camera. I think the last thing I bought of real worth to me was like... my dog? Lol. And that was many years ago. Most of the electronic stuff I got from relatives and people for those gifting holidays. Oh! My black/white Punkroses. Those were $43. Hahahh, and now months later they're $29.99 on dELiA's online. Damnit.

Love Story is my new favorite song. I love it, hands down. I really like Taylor Swift even though I don't usually listen to countryish music. Taking Back Sunday is still up there though, can't ever get tired of their songs.

I missed the Secret Life premier! It was on Monday dangggggit. Gotta watch it online now, hahahh.

Journal Bits - 01/06

Hmm, nothing new really. School was basically the same.

We got a late Christmas present today, a box of GOOD chocolates. None of them were hard and nasty like those boxes you get from people you don't know very well. Lmao, I ate so many.

I wish the weather was better. Then I could have scenery and lighting for pictures. And, I just don't like the rain. I think I need an umbrella tomorrow. Althought it is better than snow. I won't complain too much.

New Project052 Photo!

It's pretty cool.
:D

Linked on the right side somewhere ->

I have sooo many ideas. Now I just need that camera, hahah. The flash on my point and shoot sucks butt. When flash is on indoors, it makes everything look too smooth and not clear. I also need to make a spot for portraits instead of draping a tablecloth on my bed, lmao.

JL is sleeping, ugh. Lameo jetlagged butt.

Happiness isn't too Hard

Finally saw him again today.

Yeah the hair. I'll get used to it. I'm actually quite happy with it, because I was imagining blonde this WHOLE time. I was thinking yellow/blonde hair and it was so awful in my head. Thankfully, it's not like that. He got me cute things<3.

We're in a great place right now. Happy, more than we've been in a long time and it feels amazing. I can't even be fake-mad now, that's how good it is. Hahahh, lmao.

For the DLSR, I think I've settled on a Nikon d60. D90 is way too much money and all that. I might take some pictures later, I gotta set up a white sheet somewhere though, hahah.

Nice Ending for Break

Lots of good things today :)
I don't have anything too deep to talk about today. How about a list?

• SNOW is sticking. That's only good because maybe school delays. If my last drive is cancelled, I will scream.
• JL&I are in a veryveryvery good place. =]]
• Aunt said she'd loan me money for DSLR for sure.
• Mom said she'd let me buy one.
• Dad said the D90 is a good one. [Which means I can spend $1,300 on a camera].
• I had spicy chicken today.
• My mom didn't nag me about anything.
• My room is CLEAN.
• I have a million ideas for 365/52.

Digital SLR

Officially saving up for a digital SLR now. No longer spending money on impulsive buys at the mall or anything. IF I do, I will think very carefully about it. I can't just go without spending for a year, not too realistic.

I want a Nikon D90. Or a Canon Rebel. Which means I will need $750-$1500. I can get a loan from my aunt, but that's sort of too easy. Hahahh. Ohhhh my, I can't wait.

=]

He's home. :D

I expected tomorrow, so that call that came earlier today? The picture of us was flashing and his ringtone was blaring and I was like wtf. It was a good surprise, sort of like Christmas morning. =]

He's tired though. I suppose I could see why. Hahahh, major jetlag. So I'm gonna go teach Emily some new words in the meantine. She says Jacky quite clearly now. =]]

So Likeeee

Technically he comes home tomorrow. TOMORROW!

That means tomorrow I am able to pick up my phone and call him. Or text him. Or IM him. And on Monday... see him in person! Hahahahh, after three weeks. Three long weeks. Okay, so I'm sure you who are reading this don't care as much as I do. Well, that's how it should be. Righhhhht?

I'm having a moment.

2009 Resolutions

Yeah, I guess I'll try to keep up with them this year.

1. Apply for lots of jobs. And get one.
2. Write more. Not just in Blogger. Started novels, journal, poetry, etc.
3. More calories! At least like, 10+ more pounds.
4. Ace Finals.
5. Put aside fund for Digital SLR.
6. No more impulsive purchases. Okay, maybe just 1 or 2. :D
7. Don't lose things.
8. Relax.

Hahahh,

I just noticed that my blog archive got really really small. I was like, wtf. Cause yesterday it was super long. But yeah... 2009. Now my blog is really off-kilter. DANGIT. I'll have to blog a lot to get it even again.

Oh yeah, and on Jeopardy yesterday I learned a new word. Totally going to use this in my myspace about me or something. :D

Parsimonious
Adjective

parsimonious, penurious (excessively unwilling to spend) "parsimonious thrift relieved by few generous impulses"; "lived in a most penurious manner--denying himself every indulgence"