Desperation

It doesn't feel like Christmas Eve. I don't care much for the holidays this year. Saaaaad, I know.

My head feels super cluttered right now. This holiday mess has my mom all worked up and enthusiastic which just makes me want to get out of here. This project after that, right now she wants me to do so much. Christmas this, holiday that. Sure sure, I get it. But I'm starting to feel the need to scream at the top of my lungs.

Twilight's a good escape. I rarely read books twice, let alone a third time. Yes, I'd rather be in Forks than in this red and green madhouse. Insanity, I feel it coming.

Soduku too. Sp? I never knew why anyone would want to play it, but it came downloaded on my zune. It's almost addicting now.

Books about vampires and logic games. My grasp on sanity.