Things I'd like to Say

Might as well get it out? Who gives a crap.
I think I'm just on this streak of saying everything that crosses my mind. Yeah, a thought barf. Lmao, that sounds hella nasty. Anyways, where to start. I feel scatterbrained, so beware.

The teenage population annoys me. Lmao, this blog could be long if I went on and on, which I don't have time for. All the freaking drama. It's always there, and basically affects everyone. I know I don't go around talking hella smack or girlfighting, lmao. I still get involved it in, which is stupid because what the hell do I do, I'm a coward, I don't have anything dramaworthy. But guys, they are the main cause all of the freaking drama in the world. It's hard to picture a time when I liked a guy and wasn't involved in some sort of drama. I don't say shittt, I just freaking like or go out with a guy, and all of a sudden I get death stares from little cliques of girls. It's like, one girl's got a problem and so does all of her friends. So freaking stupid. No wonder why girls get such a bad name with drama. Even though we all know guys participate in it just as much as we do. Hahah, and myspace wars! Those are freaking hillarious. Like, get a life, really. If you login to myspace just to talk smack back and forth with some chick, then freaking get a life. Stupid. Oh, and bulliten wars. Those are the worst. You can't avoid them. You go to your home page and there they are. "FUK U STOOPiiD BiiTCHH", "FUC UR MOM", etc. Keep it in a message, at least then the whole world doesn't have to see it.

Stream of Consciousness 1

I miss doing these. We did these in New Mexico, it's sort of like a word/thought vomit where you just write and write and write revolving around a thought, word, or idea. Etc. I feel slightly poetic. I think it's the sunny weather, it gives my soul some depth. Hahaha, hmm.


Summer cotton dresses, winter clearance markdowns, a season of change, a season to grow. People, they change themselves, let's try to act hard, let's try to be nicer, let's just not care. Who cares. Either way, they come back to school all the same. You can still see right through them. That "cool" title you've got on your forehead, that style you think is "all yours", I see right through that. I wish others could. You think you've got admirers, but they don't love you. They love the thought of you. So cool, so slick, you're so freaking hillarious. I'll laugh really loudly at your jokes. I'll laugh like it's actually funny. No wait, I won't. It's summer, I've changed. Maybe you could see through me before, but now you can't. There's nothing to see through. I'm done trying to please all you that think you matter. It's stupid, cause you don't. You're just like me, you're just like the next freaking kid to walk down the hall, you're like us all. So so so high and mighty. You rule the world in your mind. Take your nose down a notch, keep your eyes on me, make your tone even, leave your attitude at home. I feel sorry for you, I wish you could see.

Boy, I feel better now.

Picasa!

I was on Picasa's program and saw the option to "Blog This". Hahaha, this could come in handy. It makes sense since Blogger and Picasa are both Google program things. Ehh, anyways. That's cool. The above picture is left-to-right, auntie's friend, her babe Hannah, cousin Emily, my aunt. Emily's tryna kiss the baby. Sillysilly kids.

La Musica

2 nights ago I transferred my music from my old desktop onto a memory card and onto my laptop after painstakingly going through them to see which songs I wanted to keep. Well, I dragged all the songs from the memory card over to my iTunes. Then, brilliant me, deleted the songs from the memory card so that there was more space on it. I thought since they were in iTunes, I could delete them. Well, SHIT. "iTunes could not locate this file, would you like to browse for it?" Fuckfuck, I cussed inside my head many times. So, I had to limewire allllll those songs to replace them. I could have deleted them, but I didn't feel lazy for once.

My desktop's been around for 10 years, and I had my first mp3 in like, 7th grade. Lotssss of music files. So now I'm reminscing and it's amazing. I think old songs are the best, it's like they have history with you. I've been in Party Shuffle for the past couple hours, it's just great. I could go like, be productive, but I've chosen not to for awhile.

For those of you who have OpenID or a Google/Blogger account, comment and leave me songs. I have one of those detailed tracker count things, soooo many people, no comments. :D

Lalaaaa...

Another SC Day

Today was the mall-day with Jacky. It was absolutely wonderful except for the fact that I could not find anything.

I swear, f21 is so huge, it's hard to find anything. All I wanted was this long sleeve burnout top thing I saw online. Nooo, wasn't in there. Or if it was, I sure as hell did not find it. dELiA*s has this fleece peacoat I wanted, nope not in stores. Wetseal's Buffalo Plaid Jacket? Hahah, no luck. Ew, and that store is extremely hot and musty.

Got a few things at f21, a shirt at hot topic. Hm, yeah that was it. Red Mango is goooood. I like their blenders. Kinda pricey, but ohhh well. Then at KS we pigged out at Jack-in-the-box. It was lovely up until the part where I looked at the beef and noticed how gross it looked as a hamburger. Hahah, I wish I had the balls to become a vegitarian. I love meat though, I'd just give in after a couple days, shame on me.

Hm, and today I got this weird Deja Vu. Creepy. Hearing "Collide" by Howie Day gave me this flashback of those first days of our relationship. Kind of corny, but it was a warm&fuzzy moment in my head. I should listen to more old songs and see what sort of randomness I can obtain from them.

Yikes, 3 days left. This is cramping my mood.

Journal Bits - 0829

Hm, so I'm sort of bored.

My mom kidnapped my laptop so she could look at houses with this real estate person that's over at our house right now. So I am on the new desktop. It's okay, but it doesn't have GIMP. I would much rather be using that right now.

My aunt's going to Vancouver with Emily, and I superrrr want to go. But I'd come back on Monday which my mother does not approve of since "I need to be getting ready for school that day." My butt.

So tomorrow I'm going to southcenter with Jacky. Then Sunday is helping out with a wedding party, lots of food. Leah won't be back til Sunday afternoon, bleh. I wanted to borrow her to help with my photoproject. Maybe Jacky can do that, who knows. The project is unnamed and undefined. I guess I have to think about that some.

I think I need to make to-do lists too. Like one on paper that I can physically cross off things from. Ahhh, my life is a mess.

So much to do. Can't wait until tomorrow. I get to hang out and buy new clothes, only God knows how much I need that.

Angry Rant 2

Ahh, what a long day. As was yesterday.

Yesterday I got a haircut. It's not so bad. I told the lady not to touch my bangs, so she didn't and it looks fine. Vietnamese people are quite blunt, and I got very angry inside my head yesterday. I'm used to it though, so it's all good.

I mean, I know I'm skinny. I freaking understand. It's not like I want to be. I know I would look better with a couple pounds of my face, I know I would look better with boobs and butt. Who doesn't know that. But I do not starve myself, nor do I make myself throw up, in fact, I don't have any sort of eating disorder, I like my food. You blame it on whatever, but I really don't know why I'm thin. I eat greens, meats, grain, and I do not excercise religiously.

People always nag on me for my weight. I don't want to be skinny! I wouldn't mind being a little chubby, that would be wonderful. And all I see is people complaining and wanting to lose weight. What for? Yeah, lose weight if you've become unhealthy and overweight. But if you're just losing weight to lose weight, then don't even go there. You don't want to look like me, so don't bother. I wish there were magazine spreads and little pop-up ads about gaining weight. I would pay for that shit.

Angry rant over.

Inspired for the Moment

If only I had a white wall. Life would be so much easier. Instead, I must now settle for a decent colored wall. Well, I could use other walls too I guess. I just need to find pretty and clean scenery, without crap littering the background. Hm, a lot harder to find than I expected.

I finally learned how to add textures and stuff. Like, I knew how before but it was very beginner-y. Oh, and I need someone to take the pictures. I don't have a tripod for my camera. I wish I had a digital SLR. I wish I had decent backgrounds to use. I wish a lot of things. I just want to try my ideas out. How suckish.

Anywho, check out what I made last night. =]

School Countdown!

5 days left!

I still have so many things left to do before summer08 ends. About a couple days into the school year and I'll be looking forward to summer09. Ahhhhh, summer's ending. Reality hasn't hit me yet, it will soon though.

I still need to:

• Go shopping for clothes
• Get a freaking haircut
• Hang out with all my pallies
• Read all my checked-out books
• Buy a graphing calculator
• Update my iTunes
• Update my planner
• Fully clean my room
• Organize my life
• Hmm, lots more.

Graphics Site

Forreals now, you got to check it out. [www.dramaticsunshine.com], or just click the link.

All of my stuff is under "Blends". Right now there's only some of my stuff, as it's not updated every 5 seconds. By tomorrow there might be some more stuff, idk. It's all in my photobucket right now, which you can check out here.

I kid you not, it's hard work. Yvonne, my friend who created the site taught me how to do things on there. It's nerdy, but who cares. Not everyone can do that stuff. And, now I know how to edit actual pictures, with inspiration from Rosie Hardy of course. She's amazing.

Finally, instead of watching reruns and sleeping all day, I have found a way to channel my boredom. On days like these, GIMP is fabulous. But I'm about to go out soon, so right now I'm just temporarily on GIMP.


Oh, and I got Studio Photography 1 for 1st period. I'm superrr excited. I even pulled out my old camera, the one that's way older than me. It's so cool, takes me back beyond the days of digital cameras. From what I hear, it's a cool class. I'll sort of miss marketing though. That class I was actually interested in. But alas, the teacher has gone.

Okay, have fun looking at my stuff :D