currently feeling foreveralone

my boo thang left to China today. won't see him for another month. what sucks most is that communication isn't guaranteed since facebook is blocked over there and he might not even have access to internet. sigh.

we have traditions now for when he goes to China or when I go to Vietnam. we write each other cute letters that we read once we've left the country. when he leaves, I add a couple pages to our scrapbook so that he can take it with him. the scrapbook is completely filled up minus one page at the end. I think I'll keep it for our UW graduation... or who knows after that ;)

the letter he wrote me made me cry like a baby lol. I love that boy and I miss him already.

only 32 days left...

almost one year later...

sigh. almost forgot about this blog.

basically, my life is the exact same. hahah. no, but really. except now I don't have as many college woes, I'm actually leaving my house in September, Emily is all big and mature now, and Jacky got me a beautiful, shiny topaz/diamond ring for our three year... things are very good right now.

huh, what?

everything is good minus college woes.
buttt are you forfuckingreal? I'm turning 18 in 3 months? I'm starting my second year of college in 2.5 months? I'm applying to universities in 5 months?

so unrealistic.

new header image!

yaaaay. took me awhile to make it -_-

october 26, 2010

is the day I will be an adult and I will do whatever I want to do. end of story.

no longer the puppeteer, I am the puppet

no longer the puppeteer, I am the puppet, originally uploaded by ohhh catherine.

summuh

this summer's not so bad so far. nowadays I work 6hrs/day x 5 days a week. it's all good but I just wanna sleep in some days. or spend some time with my boy. seems like we haven't seen each other in awhile. last time I saw him was over the weekend when we took Emily to the mall. we're planning a road trip to Portland this summer though, that should be helllla fun. it's even been pre-approved by my parents which is uhm, kind of shocking actually.then I got the trip to the zoo soon, hahah. it amazes me how excited I am. and then the rest of the summer (what time I have left) is to apply for a crap load of scholarships. yuuum, can't wait.

I don't know, I just felt like writing something in here since I've been majorly sluffing in my physical journal. lame! it's like with all this typing my capacity to actually hand write something has decreased.

annnnnnd that's about it.

my current wishlist

• bandeau tops
• long sleeve dresses
• white dr martens
• a velvet or lace bodysuit
• a bare-back dress
• a tripod
• thick-heeled shoes
• Zune HD
• a new freaking laptop

dear friends,

you aren't my friends anymore. if you think applies to you then it does.

I made an effort, if goes by unreturned then it's not up to me anymore. all I can say is no more effort will be made, nor will it be returned from me. if you don't have the decency to look at anyone out of sight then it's fine. your "out of sight, out of mind" complex will be fun to see in action next year when we're all off to different places. I wonder who will still be there for you.

I hope all goes well for you.

love happens

my gosh,
my favorite flickr photog. and her equally talented photo. boyfriend have broken up. he found a new girl, she's still broken hearted. they lived in different countries (met on flickr) and their relationship was basically documented through their photos and blog. when they finally met each other they produced this series of remarkable pictures that I fell in love with. it inspired me to pick up a camera and not just take pictures of flowers and grass and animals. it sparked the beginning of my photography ambitions.

I feel so disheartened. believing in a love story in addition to your own is dangerous stuff. it ends up skewing your trust in the stability of love. not that there is stability to believe in really... it takes but a second to decide to change your mind about something.