summuh

this summer's not so bad so far. nowadays I work 6hrs/day x 5 days a week. it's all good but I just wanna sleep in some days. or spend some time with my boy. seems like we haven't seen each other in awhile. last time I saw him was over the weekend when we took Emily to the mall. we're planning a road trip to Portland this summer though, that should be helllla fun. it's even been pre-approved by my parents which is uhm, kind of shocking actually.then I got the trip to the zoo soon, hahah. it amazes me how excited I am. and then the rest of the summer (what time I have left) is to apply for a crap load of scholarships. yuuum, can't wait.

I don't know, I just felt like writing something in here since I've been majorly sluffing in my physical journal. lame! it's like with all this typing my capacity to actually hand write something has decreased.

annnnnnd that's about it.

my current wishlist

• bandeau tops
• long sleeve dresses
• white dr martens
• a velvet or lace bodysuit
• a bare-back dress
• a tripod
• thick-heeled shoes
• Zune HD
• a new freaking laptop

dear friends,

you aren't my friends anymore. if you think applies to you then it does.

I made an effort, if goes by unreturned then it's not up to me anymore. all I can say is no more effort will be made, nor will it be returned from me. if you don't have the decency to look at anyone out of sight then it's fine. your "out of sight, out of mind" complex will be fun to see in action next year when we're all off to different places. I wonder who will still be there for you.

I hope all goes well for you.

love happens

my gosh,
my favorite flickr photog. and her equally talented photo. boyfriend have broken up. he found a new girl, she's still broken hearted. they lived in different countries (met on flickr) and their relationship was basically documented through their photos and blog. when they finally met each other they produced this series of remarkable pictures that I fell in love with. it inspired me to pick up a camera and not just take pictures of flowers and grass and animals. it sparked the beginning of my photography ambitions.

I feel so disheartened. believing in a love story in addition to your own is dangerous stuff. it ends up skewing your trust in the stability of love. not that there is stability to believe in really... it takes but a second to decide to change your mind about something.

when a heart breaks... it don't break even.

you know when you can relate to something even if it doesn't apply anymore?

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no

blogging just to blog

I don't know what to blog about anymore without sounding completely mundane.

life is good. everything is good.
except someone stole my Zune from my car. sad, sad. I loved that Pinky ;(
and... yeah.

oh yeah and except the fact that there's less than a month left in Seattle. soooo sad. I don't deal well with change, I never have. I adapt fast but there's always that unsettling feeling I get in new situations and it stays with me longer than it really should. I was feeling sad and explained to Jacky how I'll miss the metro #49, 10, 11, 42 and 150. and all the friends I've made, the bus drivers who recognize me, all the regular riders on the bus, running down Pike to make the earliest bus, going to Urban Outfitters and H&M when we get out of our last class early, eating at Dick's and the pizza place nearby, seeing all the little kids playing outside in the daycare area, dangerously getting over 5 lanes to the carpool lane on I-5 when we drive, taking pictures of the license plates next to us because parking is freaking tight and we're afraid for the exterior of our cars, walking down to Convention Place Station rain or shine, and racing to see who makes it there first.

I hope Highline doesn't disappoint me. it's got big shoes to fill.

a week of thrifting

thrift stores (particularly Value Village) are my new favorite place to shop at. I've stopped by there almost every day this week. every single thing I bought was in at least 9/10 condition.

1. Abercrombie & Fitch offwhite "vintage outerwear" jacket. $9.99

2. American Eagle v-neck hoodie. $4.99

3. high-waisted cargo shorts. $4.99

4. Forever 21 destroyed skinnies. $4.99

5. Vintage (old label) Anchor Blue high-waisted black skinnies. $2.49

6. a crap load of high-waist belts. $0.99 each

7. vintage (old label) Forever 21 white shoes. I studded them. $2.99

8. 2007 limited & discontinued Valentine's Day red satin Air Force XXV low tops. still superrrr clean. $9.99

9. navy blue Converse dress w/ ties. $3.49

10. gray polka dot romper. $6.99

Emily's coming home tomorrow! my mom, Nikki, Jacky, and I are going to go pick her up from the airport. she's going to be so big now it's insane.

went to Tony's birthday dinner tonight. it was fun esp. cuz they messed up my order and I got TWO entrees. teeheeeee, good stuff. and Jacky made a very nice speech so that was cute too. hahah.

business has been going well. expecting $50 in the mail this week. so far I've made well over $100 but shipping takes from it. who knew Myspace shops were the key to success all this time? finally my closet has begun to shrink.

blahblah, life is good. life is calm and life is damn fine.

twoyears

<- + hanging out all morning + happy hour at Applebee's + $2.40 shirts at Kohl's + perfection = our two year.

316/365

light & airy (316/365), originally uploaded by ohhh catherine.

365 just depresses me now.
I've slacked too much & there's no way I can think of anything conceptual when my mind is bogged down with the shit of this past week. fuck it.